“…but secretly, you want to know what it’s like” Madonna
You do, don’t you. You want to know what it’s like to be a girl.
Even if you kinda secretly think being a girl is degrading, like the song says, even if you think it would make you weak and small and pathetic, you still think about it. You wonder, late at night when you wake up hard and aching. You wonder what it would be like to wake up with a pussy instead of a cock.
You check out the girls walking by, notice their hair and shoes and nail polish. You appease your inner male icon by assuring yourself that it’s because you’re totally straight and you’re just checking her out in case you may want to ‘tap that.’ But you’re lying to yourself.
You don’t check out girls to fuck; you check them out to see how it’s done.
You look at them to stay up to date on fashion trends. To see how long they wear their hair, and how do they style it. You look at girls because you want to BE one. You want to be a sweet sexy young girl. You want to feel your hair brush the back of your neck, your shoulders, you want to be able to use sunglasses as a makeshift hairband. You want to grow your fingernails out and paint them lurid red.
You dream of wearing a sweet sundress, a skimpy strapped tank, ass-hugging jeans and toe revealing sandals. You wish you could go out in tiny short shorts and a bikini top to lay in the sun and dream. You wish that guys would check ~you~ out when you walk down the street. You only wish you could be a hot sissy crossdresser.
Even thinking that you might one day be a sissy is exciting to you.
Someday, you too could be a sissy. You could kneel before a hot stud, take his hard cock into your mouth and suckle there. You could place your hand, long nails gleaming, against the hard muscle of his thigh and feel it flex as he cums in your mouth. You could be that, do that, feel that, be there…
Someday.
Oh yes Harper. You captured my essence exactly. I want to be a girl and experience every part of it, good and bad. A loving boyfriend with a big sexual appetite; shopping for pretty clothes and cute shoes; periods; housework; everything.
Thank you for making this and so many other intelligent audios to help us understand ourselves better.
Oh John, I’m so glad that my words resonated with you so much! People with gender varient lives are near and dear to my heart, you know, as well as those folks who ‘merely’ like to play with gender games.
xoxo!
I’ve got pussy envy so bad when I display my girlie girl cockette in her panties I moan and groan like a little panty princess wishing I was a little girl D*ddy’s Little girl it’s soooo sweeeeeeeeettt